Loving you is like being on a swing

A poem written to express my feelings towards her

We used to love going up and down on a swing.
Is that why when I think of loving you,
my mind goes up in elation
thinking of how beautiful our life will be.
And then slowly swings back to despair
thinking of how painful connecting our lives will be.

“My heart skips a beat when I see you”
“Butterflies flutter in my core”

All these cliches,
and yet I feel none of that with you.

What I felt with you
shattered the rigid marble box
that I kept the meaning of love in.

I used to think that,
Love is based on chemistry,
Love is based on first sight,
Love is based on the fire that they light up in you,

But truly,
To be loved is to be a witness and to be witnessed.
And what a subtle gentle feeling it is,
when I’m with you

I yearn for you
With every flower that I photograph
With every breeze that cools my scorched skin
With every shard you painted in my heart of glass

Everytime I witness my life
you step into my mind gently. And I pour my heart out to you
in hopes that you will be my witness

Despite my yearning,
I can never be able to get out of this swing,
and step on to the ground with you.

For I know that,
right now is not the right time,
and us miles apart is not the right place.

Yet despite all odds,
I know that,
us healing together is the right journey,
for both of us.